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2008-10-02T14:04:00Z

Filling out another meme due to boredom...

➜ Bold the ones that are true.
➜ Italicize the ones that are sort of true.

general
♫ I am 5'4 or shorter.
♫ I think I'm ugly.
♫ I have many scars.
♫ I tan easily. Yes. And I get sunburnt easily too. *twitches*
♫ I wish my hair was a different color.
♫ I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
♫ I have a tattoo. 1 for now, more to come soon...
♫ I am self-conscious about my appearance.
♫ I have/had braces.
♫ I wear glasses.
♫ I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
♫ I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
♫ I have had more than two piercings. I have 15 altogether--5 on one ear, 8 on the other. And 2 navel piercings.
♫ I have had piercings in places besides my ears.
♫ I have freckles. slightly but more in summer.

family/home life
♫ I've sworn at my parents.
♫ I've run away from home.
♫ I've been kicked out of the house.
♫ My biological parents are together.
♫ I have a sibling less than one year old.
♫ I want to have kids someday.
♫ I have children.
♫ I've lost a child.

embarrassment
♫ I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. (What the hell?)
♫ Disney movies still make me cry.
♫ I've snorted while laughing.
♫ I've laughed so hard I've cried.
♫ I've glued my hand to something.
♫ I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
♫ I've had my trousers rip in public.
♫ I've had stitches.
♫ I've broken a bone.
♫ I've had my tonsils removed.
♫ I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
♫ I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
♫ I've had serious surgery.
♫ I've had chicken pox. Maybe when I was younger? Can't remember.

travelling
♫ I've driven over 200 miles (1000km) in one day.
♫ I've been on a plane.
♫ I've been to North America.
♫ I've been to Niagara Falls.
♫ I've been to Japan.
♫ I've been to Europe.
♫ I've been to Africa.

experiences
♫ I've been lost in my city.
♫ I've seen a shooting star.
♫ I've wished on a shooting star.
♫ I've seen a meteor shower.
♫ I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
♫ I've pushed all the buttons in a lift.
♫ I've been to a casino.
♫ I've been skydiving.
♫ I've gone skinny dipping.
♫ I've played spin the bottle.
♫ I've crashed a car.
♫ I've been skiing.
♫ I've been in a play.
♫ I've met someone in person from the internet.
♫ I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
♫ I've seen the northern lights.
♫ I've sat on a roof top at night.
♫ I've played chicken.
♫ I've seen the RHPS.
♫ I've eaten sushi.
♫ I've been snowboarding.

relationships
♫ I'm single.
♫ I'm in a relationship.
♫ I'm available.
♫ I'm engaged.
♫ I'm married.
♫ I've gone on a blind date.
♫ I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
♫ I have a fear of abandonment.
♫ I've been divorced.
♫ I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
♫ I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
♫ I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
♫ I've kept something from a past relationship.

sexuality
♫ I've had a crush on someone of the same gender.
♫ I've kissed a member of the same gender.
♫ I've had sex with someone of the opposite gender.
♫ I've had sex with someone of the same gender.
♫ I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
♫ I am a cuddler.
♫ I've been kissed in the rain.
♫ I've had sex outdoors.
♫ I've hugged a stranger.
♫ I have kissed a stranger.
♫ I have had sex with a stranger.

honesty/crime
♫ I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
♫ I have lied to my parents about where I am.
♫ I am keeping a secret from the world.
♫ I've cheated while playing a video game.
♫ I've cheated on a test.
♫ I've driven through a red light.
♫ I've been suspended from school.
♫ I've witnessed a crime.
♫ I've been in a fist fight.
♫ I've been arrested.
♫ I've shoplifted.

drugs/alcohol
♫ I've consumed alcohol. Is this a joke...?
♫ I have/do smoke cigarettes.
♫ I have/do smoke pot.
♫ I regularly drink.
♫ I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
♫ I take cough medication when I'm not sick.
♫ I've done hard drugs.
♫ I've been addicted to an illegal substance. When I was much younger, yes...
♫ I can't swallow pills.
♫ I can swallow about five pills at a time no problem.

random
♫ I can sing well.
♫ I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
♫ I open up to others too easily.
♫ I watch the news.
♫ I don't kill bugs.
♫ I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme.
♫ I fucking swear regularly.
♫ I sing in the shower.
♫ I am a morning person.
♫ I paid for my mobile phone ring tone.
♫ I'm a snob about grammar.
♫ I am a sports fanatic.
♫ I play with my hair. Hmm...
♫ I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
♫ I love being neat.
♫ I love spam.
♫ I've copied more than 30 cds in a day.
♫ I bake well.
♫ My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
♫ I don't know how to shoot a gun.
♫ I am in love with love.
♫ I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
♫ I laugh at my own jokes.
♫ I eat fast food weekly.
♫ I believe in ghosts.
♫ I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
♫ I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
♫ I am really ticklish.
♫ I love white chocolate.
♫ I bite my nails.
♫ I play video games.
♫ I'm good at remembering faces.
♫ I'm good at remembering names.
♫ I'm good at remembering dates.
♫ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
♫ My answers are totally honest.

[ 54 ]

2008-09-26T06:10:20Z

... I can't remember the last time I've felt this sore. It's not bad really, but it's annoying when you can't walk faster because it hurts too fucking much.

Hope we at least kept those two awake for the entire night. About time that they got a taste of their own medicine. *smirks*

K: Same time tonight? *chuckles*

[ 53 ]

2008-09-21T17:43:45Z

.....

....................

.........................THEY DID WHAT????!!!!!

..... My fucking god, you got to be joking me.

[ 52 ]

2008-09-19T16:06:44Z

For the first time in my life, I feel like I have everything I could ever want right in front of me.

I hope it remains this way from now on.

[ 51 ]

2008-09-14T11:03:20Z

There's nothing better than drinking a cold glass of cowboy on a hot spring's night.

... If only I had anything to drink.

Where did all my alcohol disappeared off to anyways? I'm looking in your direction, Pet. *twitches*

[ 50 ]

2008-09-13T14:28:13Z

... Just wait until I get my hands on more of that shrinking potion, then I'd use it to wipe that smirk off your face. *twitches*

Or even better, I'll use the gender alteration potion instead. Yes... That would work perfectly. *sniggers*

You're so fucked now, Lioncourt.

[ 49 ]

2008-09-08T15:53:13Z

You missed out on a golden opportunity tonight, Raine... One that will never be repeated again.

Hope you have fun explaining yourself to your beloved though. Tell me how it goes tomorrow. *smirks*

[48; Somewhat back...?]

2008-09-01T06:47:43Z

... It's been a really long time, but I guess I'm back to using this journal now.

[46]

2008-01-05T14:47:50Z

A quick continuation to my last entry...

The lyrics to this song really caught my eyes, as it more or less, reminds me of what I'm feeling at the moment, so I thought I'd put it here and share it with everyone. Thanks to Christie for recommending it to Pet.

"dancing" by Elisa

Time is gonna take my mind
and carry it far away where I can fly
The depth of life will dim, my temptation to live for you
If I were to be alone, silence would rock my tears
'cause it's all about love and I know better
How life is a waving feather

So I put my arms around you, around you
And I know that I'll be leaving soon
My eyes are on you, they're on you
And you see that I can't stop shaking

No, I won't step back, but I'll look down to hide from your eyes
'cause what I feel is so sweet and I'm scared that even my own breath
Oh could burst it if it were a bubble
And I'd better dream if I have to struggle

So I put my arms around you, around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you, they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me

I'm dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music's the reason why I know time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists

So I put my arms around you, around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you, they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me

So I put my arms around you, around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you, they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me

[44; The Dawn of a New Year]

2008-01-02T03:38:15Z

Can't believe it's the beginning of another year. I've only noticed recently how time passes by so fast when you're spending it with others that you care about.

But doing the usual 'end-of-year' reflection and looking back at all the things that has happened in the last year, I'm glad it's 2008. Hopefully, this year will be much better than the last... *sighs*

And god, I can't believe I'm turning 20 (vampire years) this year... It's rather annoying. *twitches* Oh well, I guess I won't be the only one... *smirks*

I hope everybody's had a nice and safe holiday. Guess it's back to work for everyone...

[43]

2007-12-25T04:37:32Z

Finally, I have found the perfect game for me: Assassin's Creed. *impressed*

Oh and Happy Christmas to anyone that celebrates it, because I don't. I don't really like to celebrate any occasions that has anything to do with religion...

Now if you don't mind, I'm off to play on the PS3. Hope you'll all have a good holiday.

[42; Regarding Family Matters...]

2007-12-22T09:12:29Z

Kaname, I know you're probably too busy to read my journal, but in case you DO... Next time we meet, how about you introduce your sister to me, hm? *smirks* By the way, I didn't know you had that kind of interests.... *eye twitches*

What a surprising turn in events... All I can say is that the hostess and I are both extremely amused at the moment.

Hmm poor Zero-kun... He must be traumatised. *chuckles* Maybe I should go visit him later to see if he's coping ok. *smirks widens*

As for myself, I'm back to my normal self. Although the last 2 weeks have been quite boring as I've been doing nothing but lay on the bed, half-dead. At least Pet was decent enough to share her bed with me, and cook with chicken soup. *sighs*

One last thing... Christie, I hope you are doing fine after a long flight to Los Angeles. Do try to keep in touch if possible because your... ehh.. "whorehouse" is starting to get out of control. (Pet told me to say that to you. *twitches*) Apparently, Rai and Raine have been causing problems, but I'll try to get them both "sorted out" as soon as possible.

In the meantime, just try to have fun on your holidays and I shall see you as soon as you return. *hugs*

Anyways, I'm off to the city for a few early Christmas parties. It's 3 days until Christmas and I'm not planning to have any sober days from now until at least the 31st December.

Take care everyone and have a merry and safe Christmas.

[41]

2007-12-16T13:55:50Z

Just a quick update for anyone that cares...

I'm still alive... Well, barely, but I'm slowly getting better. Still feeling a little shit at the moment.. Thinking now that it was a bad idea to go out drinking last night. I should've stayed home to sleep. *sighs*

Back to bed then, I guess.

[40; dying]

2007-12-12T14:10:19Z

Having a high fever for 3 days straight is not very nice.

I don't get sick very often, but when I do fall ill, I fall hard. *sighs*

Now if you don't mind, I think I'm going to crawl back into bed. Good night.

[39; blah]

2007-12-07T07:05:52Z

It's been a terrible week. *sighs*

First I got forced to crossdress by Raine for losing a card game (fucking bastard cheated, I swear), then I got half-raped by a bunch of random people while I was crossdressing. *twitches*

Then the PS3 is dead, so I cannot amuse myself with games anymore. Now Pet's bird has passed away too, which is actually quite horrible, because I used to love hearing her sing.

And then there was last night, with the unfortunate event of Pet 'accidentally' drugging my honey milk tea.

... I won't even say what happened after that. =__=

Hoping next week will be MUCH better than the last.

[38; space]

2007-11-23T10:32:43Z

I really need to get my own room... it's not very nice to share your room with one (or sometimes even 2) other people ~~especially if they are rapists~~. *sighs* Shall discuss my proposition with Pet after she's done showering. Hopefully, she'll see things from my perspectives for a change.

On a brighter note, I'm really enjoying Vidoll's new album. I actually had low expectations for this cd, especially after hearing "Cloud", but it's surprisingly refreshing. Definitely worth listening to if you are a fan of their old music or just a visual-kei fan like myself.

And it seems I have another addition to my ever-growing fanclub over on my Facebook... Interesting. *smirks*

[37; too much time...]

2007-11-17T11:54:41Z

I'm bored as hell and my new roommate is not here, so I did this.

How old were you when you...

1. Fell in love the first time - If you mean truly falling in love, then 17.
2. Got a MySpace account - I don't have one.
3. Got drunk - 11...? I don't know, it was a frightfully long time ago.
4. Had sex - 12.
5. Got French kissed - 11.
6. Went to the hospital for surgery - Never.
7. Got your heart broken badly - 19.
8. Lost a pet - I've never owned a pet before...
9. Got arrested - Never.
10. Smoked a Cigarette - 11.
11. Broke a bone - I can't remember, but I broke my first bone during training.
12. Went to a concert - 15.
13. Got your own mobile phone - 15.
14. Got a speeding ticket - Never.
15. Ran away - Never...?
16. Snuck out of the house - Never needed to.
17. Pierced other than your ears - 16, I got my bellybutton pierced.
18. Got a tattoo - 12...
19. Bought porn - About 12?
20. Went to a club - 14.
21. Transfered to a new school - Never.
22. Totaled a car - Never.
23. Moved out of your parents house - I never lived with my parents.
24. Drove more than 100 miles alone - Never.
25. How old are you now - 19.

:: Survery #1 ::

1. Do you believe that love is blind?
No. It's either there or it's not. Simple as that.

2. Have you ever looked at someone and gotten butterflies?
I'm sure everybody has.

3. If you could, would you be a dog for a day?
No, I hate animals.

4. Do you put your belt on the left or right side first?
Left, but does it really matter?

5. If you could get rid of one tv show forever, what would it be?
I don't know. I don't watch television much.

6. If you could go on any gameshow, which one would it be?
Refer to the above answer.

7. What is the nicest thing you have ever done for someone?
Spare them their life when I was supposed to have killed them.

8. What joints can you crack?
Fingers and toes.

9. How many bedrooms are there in your house?
Where I'm living now? Only three.

10. What stops you from being happy?
Thinking about the regrets of my past.

11. How many languages can you speak?
I'm fluent only in English, but I do know Japanese and some French.

12. What song is most overplayed?
I don't listen to the radio, only my Ipod.

13. How often do you clean your house?
I don't need to clean it, my host does that for me. *smirks*

14. Would you rather spend an evening at home or out on the town?
Out of town.

15. Do the simple things really mean the most?
Only sometimes.

16. Are you a hard worker?
When I want to be, yes.

17. Is it harder to tell someone you love them or that you dont love them back?
Definitely the first option. I find it hard to tell others that I care for them, let alone tell somebody that I love them.

18. When was the last time you told someone how you REALLY feel?
A few months back...

19. What would be the hardest thing for you to give up?
Those who I trust and care deeply about.

20. What's your wallpaper on your cellphone?
Gazette in their newest outfits.

21. Have you ever fallen for the wrong person?
Yes, perhaps...

22. If you could have one wish right now what would it be?
To undo one mistake of my past, that cost me my future with him.

23. How many times have you moved in your lifetime that you can recall?
Too many times to count.

24. Would you kiss on a first date or just shake hands?
First option, and if things go well, I have absolutely no queries about going further than a kiss on the first date.

25. What was the last think you ate?
Darelle Lea rocky road chocolate/

26. Are you a happy drunk or an angry drunk?
Angry.

27. Are you a shy person?
Not at all, since I considered myself pretty open minded.

29. Would you marry someone that you don't love?
Why the fuck would I do that?

30. Whats the last movie you saw in theaters?
Pirates of the Caribbean 3, I think. Pet dragged me along...

31. How many people can you trust?
Truly? 4 the most, maybe.

32. What is your current mood?
Hungry and bored.

33. Who are three people you can tell anything to?
Pet, Christie and Paola.

34. Would you date someone younger?
Of course.

35. Can you sing?
I consider myself to be quite the singer, so yes, I can sing.

37. What's your favorite number?
4.

38. What would you do if they cancelled Myspace?
It doesn't concern me at all.

39. How many concerts have you been to?
Too many to count.

40. What are you looking forward to in the next 3 months?
Nothing at the moment... *sighs*

:: Supposedly never before asked questions ::

1. How do you think your last ex deserves to die?
What makes you think that I want him to die...?

2. List three words to describe your mother.
Never met her.

3. When & How did you meet your best friend?
I don't really have a 'best' friend...

4. Would you date someone you “met" on MySpace?
Unless they were extremely attractive, no.

5. What do you think of internet dating?
It ends in disaster.

6. If you could be any cartoon character, who would you be and why?
I've never thought about it...

7. What actor/actress would you go gay/lesbian for?
Not really, since I'm already bi.

8. Ever considered yourself crazy?
No...?

9. Have you ever seen a therapist?
No.

10. How do you feel about anti-depressants?
Don't care about them, since they don't concern me.

11. When was the last time you saw your (biological) dad?
I've never seen him before. He died soon after I was born.

12. Would you rather have loved and lost, or never have loved at all?
After what happened with my last relationship, I'll have to say the second option. *sighs*

13. What make, model, and color was your first car?
Can't remember.

14. Did you ever try to do the Humpty dance?
... Excuse me?

15. Do you even remember the Humpty dance?
No...? Is that some kind of dance for children?

16. Have you ever tried to make yourself pass out?
Yes, but only with alcohol.

17. Have you ever faked a nose bleed? Did anyone believe you?
....

18. Did you ever fantasize about being close friends with a celebrity?
How old do you think I am?

20. Did you ever believe you had a monster or ghost living in your closet?
Refer to the above answer.

21. Have you ever crossdressed?
Haven't needed to yet...

22. Have you ever put a bra on your head like in Weird Science?
What the fuck?

23. Have you ever played real golf?
Yes, but I didn't enjoy it. It's probably the most boring sport ever invented.

24. Have you ever had a crush on someone younger than you?
Yes, quite a few times too, actually.

25. Do you have any odd deformities?
No.

27. Have you ever had sex in a moving vehicle?
Yes.

28. What is the best meal you know how to cook?
Risotto and a simple soup.

29. What is the blanket you sleep with like?
It's black...?

30. Have you ever streaked across a football field?
No...?

31. Have you ever thought about streaking across a football field?
No.

32. Have you ever gone to band camp (sleep away)?
No.

33. If you could do something and know you’d never get caught or punished, what would it be?
Can't think of anything at the moment.

34. Are you missing any body parts that you were born with?
No.

35. Have you ever been a bully?
Only when I was younger.

36. Have you ever been bullied?
No.

37. Have you ever called a suicide hotline?
No.

38. How would you describe your significant other?
I don't really have one at the moment.

39. Do your dreams haunt you?
Depends...

40. Have you ever had an anxiety attack?
No.

:: Survery #3 ::

1. How late did you stay up last night?
8am.

2. What was the first thing you thought this morning?
"Who the fuck is touching me?!" *sighs*

3. Is the person you have a crush on older or younger than you?
Older.

4. What did you do last night?
Nothing much. Just spent a quiet night at home with Lucid and the host.

5. What do you hope to do this weekend?
I have no idea... Go clubbing?

6. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
Probably.

7. Do you own a stereo that cost more than $100?
Yes.

9. How's your heart been lately?
I don't know anymore...

10. What were you doing this morning at 7am?
Listening to music in bed.

11. What were you doing this afternoon at 12pm?
Sleeping. Well, at least I was trying to, until somebody woke me up...

14. What was the reason you last cried?
It was quite a while ago, but it was because of him.

19. Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
Yes.

20. How many red lights have you ran?
Too many.

22. What was your favorite grade?
I don't know, I've never really been fond of school.

23. What were you doing at 12am last night?
Drinking.

24. Whats a sure way to catch your attention?
When somebody yanks my hair... But don't you dare try it or I'll kill you.

25. Have you ever, in any way, been betrayed by someone you trusted?
Of course...

26. When was the last time you were given a rose?
The morning after I slept with him.. *coughs*

27. Is there anything that you are craving for right now?
Blood... And more chocolate.

28. Where did your last hug take place?
Pet hugged me before going out this morning.

29. Do people ever make stupid mistakes when spelling or saying your name?
No.

30. Have you ever started a sentence with "No offense, but..."?
No.

31. Do you drink tea?
Sometimes, but I prefer hot chocolate and coffee.

32. When was the last time you saw a cop?
I don't know. Who cares?

33. Did you ride in someone else's car today?
No.

34. Have you made a mistake in the past week?
Not that I could recall.

35. What are you listening to right now?
Ruri no Ame by Alice Nine.

36. Who was the last person to text you?
Pet...?

37. Do you miss someone?
Yes.

38. Is there anything you regret about your past?
Quite a few things, unfortunately.

39. Are you happy with your life?
It's okay, but there are a few things I'd like to change, if possible.

41. Is there a feeling you're trying to avoid?
Somewhat...

42. How's that coming?
Not so great...

43. What was the last movie you saw?
I don't know...

44. Are you sleeping somewhere Saturday night?
In my own bed, hopefully, but I have doubts...

:: Survey #4 ::

First 4 were about Myspace, so I deleted them.

5. What exactly are you wearing?
White singlet and jeans. It's too fucking hot today.

6. What is your current problem?
Probably the new roommate.

7. What do you love most?
It's pretty obvious.

8. What makes you most happy?
Being with the people that I trust and care about.

9. Are you musically inclined?
Yes. I'm a skilled guitarist.

10. Which shoe goes on first?
Does it really matter?

11. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
... I'm sick of repeating myself.

12. Ever have a near death experience?
Quite a few...

14. Name an obvious quality you have:
I'm mysterious.

15. What’s the name of the song that’s stuck in your head right now?
Dozing Green by Dir en grey.

16. Any celeb you would marry?
No.

17. Who will copy and paste this first?
No idea.

18. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
I don't know anyone with the same birthday as me.

19. Do you have a crush on someone?
Somewhat.

20. Have you ever vandalized someone’s private property?
Yes.

21. Been in a fight?
All the time.

22. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Yes, I've sung as the leading vocalist at a few rock concerts before.

23. What’s the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?
Eyes.

24. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Iced chocolate.

26.Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
Quite a few times, to be honest.

27. Say something totally random about you?
My hair's getting really long again...

28. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Yes.

29. How old are you?
20.

30. Go out or stay in?
Go out.

31. Do you wear a watch?
No.

32. Do you have anything pierced?
Ears and bellybutton.

33. Do you have any tattoos?
One on my right arm.

34. Do you like pain?
To a certain degree.

35. Do you like to shop?
Not really...

36. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
I don't remember. Probably food.

37. What was the last thing you paid for with a credit card?
I don't have a credit card.

38. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
I can't remember.

39. What is on your desktop background?
Zack from Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core.

40. Do you like redheads?
Not really. I prefer brunettes.

41. Do you know any twins?
Yes. Zero and Ichiru.

42. Do you have any weird relatives?
No...?

43. What was the last movie you watched?
Didn't I answer this before?

44. What was the last book you read?
A Dance in Blood Velvet.

45. Did you or do you go to college?
No.

46. What is your favorite pair of pants that you own?
The pair of black skinny jeans that I'm wearing at the moment.

47. What is your favorite day of the week?
Friday.

That was long. *sighs*

[36; what the fuck]

2007-11-09T15:56:34Z

She got me a new roommate.

.... D:

[35; Aftermaths]

2007-11-03T13:48:28Z

Halloween was surprisingly interesting and fun this year.

... Ignoring the fact that I accidentally overdid it with the alcohol again and ended up in a few rather... unfavorable positions and memorable moments. Moving on....

As for those who have been asking me questions on Facebook, no, I didn't really dress up as anything for Halloween this year. I merely went out in my casual clothes, with some 'fake' blood on my shirt and 'posed' as a vampire around a few underground clubs. It was funny to see how many people fell for my so-called costume... Humans are so naive. *chuckles*

Thinking back to Wednesday night, I did break a few unforgivable rules of our race, and now, I'm starting to feel the consequences of my actions.

Once I start to drink from humans again, it seems my thirst just keeps on coming back, like some kind of deadly curse... *sighs*

I guess I better home for the next few days by myself. Hopefully, it's just a passing phase of bloodlust.

[34; Three Things]

2007-10-27T11:26:02Z

I'm going to complete this 'meme' out of sheer boredom.

This following questionaire was taken from tenshi_sama

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
o1) Become the strongest swordsman of my race.
o2) Finish travelling around the world. There are still so many countries I haven't visited.
o3) Find a mate. Right now, I'm far from being able to stay committed in a long term relationship, however, one day in the future, I'd like to settle down and find a partner.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
o1) Silver
o2) Gin (Please don't call me that)
~~o3)~~

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
o1) silver-squall
o2)
o3)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
o1) My long silver hair, even if it is a pain in the arse to untangle.
o2) My navel - I love the way its shaped.
o3) My eyes. It's uniquely coloured and offers a steady, piercing stare.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
o1) Japanese
o2)
o3)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
o1) Failure, although it annoys me to fail, more than it 'scares' me.
o2) The unknown. I like to plan ahead, that's why I hate it when things are uncleared--it blurs my path and causes me to get rather anxious.
o3) My own emotions to a certain degree. I know it's rather childish, but I still find it hard to understand my own feelings towards others.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
o1) My katana. It never leaves my side, not even at nights.
o2) Ipod, because I like to listen to music while I train.
o3) Dark chocolate. (Shut up, it's addictive.)

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
o1) A loose white shirt.
o2) Black skinny jeans.
~~o3)~~

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/MUSICAL ARTISTS:
o1) Gazette
o2) D'espairsray
o3) Dir en grey

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: (current, and in no particular order)
o1) Dir en grey; DOZING GREEN
o2) Saosin; Let Go Control
o3) Ayaka; Why (One of the few rare jpop songs that I happen to appreciate.)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
o1) Sex
o2) Honesty
o3) Trust

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order, can you pick out the one that's not true?)
o1) My parents wished for peace between humans and vampires, therefore they were murdered by the Elders.
o2) The target for my assassination is Ichiru Kiryuu, the useless half-brother of Zero Kiryuu who murdered Shizuka Hiou, a pureblood vampire woman.
o3) I have the words "Without pain, there would be no suffering" in Latin tattooed onto my upper right arm.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
o1) I seem to have a attraction towards brunette and dark-coloured hair.
o2) Eyes. The more unique and beautiful, the better.
o3) .... I don't think I should say this last one out loud. Use your imagination.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
o1) Training.
o2) Practicing on my electric guitar.
o3) Playing video games on the Playstation.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: (If I could do anything at all in the world...)
o1) Get a PSP and play Crisis Core right in front of Pet to piss her off. *smirks*
o2) Head to Europe to see Gazette live in concert. Hm~
o3) Find Kaname to relieve the stress that I've been bottling up for the last week... *smirks even more*

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
o1) Rockstar.
o2) Model.
~~o3)~~

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1) I'd love to go back and visit Argentina, as one of my dear friends happen to live there.
2) America, so I could go around to Halloween parties to hook up with a few random people... *hums*
3) Japan. It's been a while since I've been home.

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
(I hate kids, so I'm changing this to "Three Names That You Like")
o1) Yuki (Male)
o2) Christopher/Chris
o3) Alexander

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
o1) I spend way too much time caring for my hair.
o2) I find accessories such as necklaces and earrings rather fascinating, and I don't mind wearing them.
~~o3)~~

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
o1) I'm strong (physically).
o2) Sex seems to overshadow my life.
o3) My favourite piece of clothing is a pair of black jeans.

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
o1) Christie.
o2) Kaname.
o3) And anyone who is bored enough to waste their time on a stupid quiz.

[33; Halloween Dilemma]

2007-10-21T14:56:40Z

Today I noticed that Halloween is fast approaching. I'm not entirely sure whether they even celebrate Halloween in Australia, but who cares, this is the only day in the year where I can roam freely and tell others that I'm a vampire without getting suspicious looks. The kids all think I'm joking and one day, I might just prove to them how real I am. Hm~

So, does anyone have any ideas of what I can go as for Halloween this year? All suggestions are welcomed and will be considered.

PS. It's Pet's fault that I'm listening to Jpop at the moment... *eye twitching*

[32; Completion]

2007-10-18T07:15:50Z

I have now successfully finished Kingdom Hearts 2, as well as completely obliviating Sephiroth. I didn't let the silver-haired bastard take any of my HP either; he didn't even have the chance to fight back at all. Comparing to the first Kingdom Hearts game, I think he is alot easier and predictable in the second game. Nevertheless, for somebody on Level 49 and using the weakest keyblade, I think I did quite well, if I do say so myself. Hmmm~ *smirks*

It's starting to get quite hot here now, which is annoying because my hair has grown long again. Perhaps if I can be bothered, I shall go get it trimmed again, but I highly doubt I'll have the patience to do that. *sighs* I guess I'll just leave it tied up more often from now on. At least it'd stop it from getting so goddamned tangled all the time.

By the way, for those who are uninformed, I have recently started an account over on "Facebook". My profile is here if you're interested. Feel free to friend me and I shall see to it that you'll be added back as soon as possible.

And there's so much talk about this "Crisis Core" game lately Pet wouldn't shut up about it *facepalm*... I looked up some information on it, and it looks good. I'm sure I'll enjoy it as I'm actually playing Dirge of Cerberus at the moment and Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children is actually one of my favourite movies. So now I'm just waiting for someone to buy the console soon so I may try out the game myself. Hopefully, that will happen sometime soon....

[31; Feverish]

2007-10-09T12:59:11Z

Argh!!!! Curse you, Youtube!!

And Christie... Next time you decide to give *those* sorts of links to Pet, PLEASE give me some kind of warning first! Christ.

.....

I think I'm gonna go and take a very long cold shower now.

[30; Forget September]

2007-10-08T13:50:51Z

It's been such a long time since I wrote a full length, proper update. Since I'm rather bored at the moment, I thought I did come online and catching up on the events that has happened within the last month.

The biggest event would be the "Animania Festival" of course, since for 3 days, I was left home alone while Pet attended the anime convention with her high school friends. And if I have received the news correctly, Rai seemed to have won some sort of popularity prize on one of the days, which came as a bit of a surprise to me. Anyways, moving on...

Was invited to a few parties and movies during September, but thanks to a few surprise encounters from Kaname during the middle of the night, I haven't been in the mood to go out. All I wanted to do was catch up on lost sleep.

So basically, for the last month, I've just been staying indoors, watching random movies and playing on her Playstation 2. The other day, the stupid thing died on me when I was trying to load Kingdom Hearts 2 and it took me all my self restraint not to throw the piece of junk out her window. I don't know why she still keeps the console, it's practically useless--it doesn't even load half her games now, teh.

So due to the unfortunate breakdown of her PS2, I decided to move to her loungeroom to try out her PS3 when her parents are not at home. It's a beautiful console and the game graphics are definitely alot better than the second console. I think I'll be playing all my games on this console from now, especially KH2.. I really want to finish it soon so I may fight Sephiroth again, but I'm still stuck at Twilight Town at the moment with Roxas.

Onto a more unpleasant matter, I have recently discovered that the Elders have tried to contact me numerous times since I've been stationed here. Fuck them, they can't control what I do and I'm definitely not afraid of them anymore. Those useless old men speak of nothing but lies and empty threats and I know they did never harm me as I'm now the strongest of the clan. I'll go back whenever I'm ready, and that's if I ever decide to go back.

Oh and for those who are curious about the topic of my last entry... Well let's just say I caught Rai in Kaname's room one night in a very compromising position. Argh.

.... I really should be hitting my host over the head with my katana at the moment. The girl keeps procrastinating on her uni speech to write something. Not too sure what it is, but from the lines I've read, it's something interesting. Oh well, maybe I should leave her to write for a little while so I may read the story after she is done. *smirks*

And for those who actually care, I'm fine, I've just been feeling rather restless and moody lately, so I haven't been in the mood to write on my journal, but I shall try to write more often from now on. I think it's better for me to vent out my thoughts, rather then keeping them bottled up inside.

I hate these emotions welling inside of me... They keep dragging me down. *sighs*

Apologies once again for ending this entry on such a negative note... But yes, I think I'm going to finish here tonight. I want to go practice on my guitar since it has been quite a while since I've last touched it... Hmm hopefully, I'll still remember how to play all favourite songs.

Hope everybody's been doing better than me.

[29; Surprises]

2007-10-04T05:46:08Z

....

Last night, I witnessed something extremely... shocking.

I guess I should've show it coming a mile away, but I didn't and to be honest, I'm still quite shocked about it at the moment.

You two have ALOT of explaining to do.